It's the day after one of the worse
days of my life, it's 3 am and I'm awaken from this bad dream, oh but wait its reality.
All I can think of is re playing that day over and over in my head from how it
started to how it ended. Even though I can't believe you’re gone, I knew this
day would have to come. All I can say is how blessed I was to spend 31
beautiful years as being your granddaughter. I was the first granddaughter in
the Miller family, my uncles thought what is this girl going to do with all
these guys in the family. (Seeing that
grandma had 5 boys) I like to think I was that daughter she never got to have
and I was given to this family by God.
I have so many fond memories of my grandma
growing up, how she helped my dad and us kids when we all lost our mother. She
was that mother figure to me that I always looked up to. Grandma was always
known to make us grand kids whatever we wanted to eat when we were over at her house,
I would want french toast and my brother Joel would want pancakes....she never
would say no. As I got older and graduated from high school and eventually
moved out of my parents’ house, I was working two jobs to pay for my rent. I
got the privilege to work with my grandma at what we called "the
restaurant" - Millers Dutch Kitchen where grandma worked there for 43
years. I thought it was so cool to work with her and she would always help me
when I needed it! Especially when I had a customer that wanted a milkshake… I
hated making milkshakes, but grandma would always make them for me. My wedding
day then came and how she looked at me that day, I just knew how proud she was
of me! When life was hard and didn't make sense at times I would call grandma
for advice and some words of encouragement.
My last real memory of grandma was
for her surprise 80th birthday that we somehow pulled off a couple months ago, and
she was actually surprised! I don't know what it was about that certain day
that I just had a feeling that I might not get another day like this again. It
was her birthday and I wanted to pamper her and make her feel beautiful so once
everything calmed down a bit I told her I was going to do her nails! Looking
back now I am so happy that I got to do that for her, you see as child grandma
always took care of me, she would french braid my hair all the time when I
would come over and she would let me "do her hair" and I always loved
looking into grandmas makeup and jewelry as a little girl. So at her birthday
party I wanted to be the one to give that special moment of pampering as she
use to do for me!
Life won't quite be the same without
you grandma, family get-togethers will feel off because you're not here with
us. But one thing I do know is that I am rejoicing that you are in heaven and
that you have NO MORE pain and that YOU are with your Heavenly Father and that
I can rest easy in.
I love you so much grandma
Love Always,
Angela
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